milton had it right…

…when he wrote Il Penseroso:

Hence vain deluding Joys,
    The brood of Folly without father bred,
How little you bested,
    Or fill the fixed mind with all your toys;
Dwell in some idle brain,
    And fancies fond with gaudy shapes possess,
As thick and numberless
    As the gay motes that people the sunbeams,
Or likest hovering dreams,
    The fickle pensioners of Morpheus’ train.

…but also when he wrote L’Allegro:

Hence loathed Melancholy,
    Of Cerberus, and blackest Midnight born,
In Stygian cave forlorn,
    ‘Mongst horrid shapes, and shrieks, and sights unholy;
Find out some uncouth cell,
    Where brooding Darkness spreads his jealous wings,
And the night-raven sings;
    There under ebon shades, and low-brow’d rocks,
As ragged as thy locks,
    In dark Cimmerian desert ever dwell.

Or, in the words of another poet:

I know there’s a balance. I see it when I swing past.

hey, nice skirt

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Yesterday we all took turns having our picture taken with the rainbow flag. I decided to get cute. It went a little something like this:

Me, adjusting flag: Hey, I know! How about this?
Female student: That’s hot!…You should take your shirt off.
Me, glancing at the vice chancellor standing 20 feet away: I don’t…think…That’s…uh…not…
Camera: click!
Me, blushing: Okaywho’snext?

femme at work

Dr. B. is working on coming out to her parents as a married woman with a boyfriend.

I’m working on coming out as girly. I mean, I like girls, but I’m kinda girly. In my experience, there are girls who like boys who find me attractive. There are boys who like boys who find me attractive. And there are also girls who like girls who find me attractive. The first category of people are the ones I’m most likely to be attracted to myself. The third category of attraction is the one I find most interesting. It doesn’t happen all the time, but it happens enough for me to notice. I have some girly qualities in my appearance and my behavior. I’m okay with that. My hair’s kind of long, I’m tall and thin, and my body language can be sort of feminine. I’m also over six feet tall, 175 pounds, and I have a relatively deep voice, usually. I know these things don’t sound at all like they go together, but somehow it all works reasonably well.

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superstitious much?

I can’t help but notice that many bloggers I read are writing about difficult personal experiences this week. Anxiety. Stress. Depression. Some of them are bloggers who read my blog, so it could be that what I’ve been writing has prompted some of these thoughts.

On the other hand, last week we had a full moon. This week we’ll see Friday the 13th. Coincidence?

Keeping me awake at night lately are my fears about reactions to tomorrow’s National Coming Out Day events on campus. My students inspire me with their courage and determination, though.

Update: PRIDE rocked the muthafu*kin’ house today! Take that, homophobes!

“Arendt’s Insights Echo Around a Troubled World”

by Edward Rothstein, New York Times (October 9, 2006):

The [Hannah] Arendt centennial is now being celebrated with conferences and lectures in locations ranging from Germany to South Korea, from Kosovo to Australia (information online), and one theme keeps recurring. When Arendt analyzed totalitarianism, introduced the idea of the “banality of evil,” emphasized distinctions between private and public life and tried to articulate a new philosophy that would reconsider the nature of thinking and judging after both had become scarce, she could just as well have been speaking to us of our time, addressing contemporary debates.

So it is no accident that in discussing Arendt’s importance more than 30 years after her death, Iraq and terrorism are often mentioned alongside her views of power and violence, statelessness and totalitarianism; her most solemn assessments of the traumatic past become warnings for the imminent future.